I just need to share this...
Last week there were certain changes I had to do with the plugs/trailers I was producing. These changes were said to have had occured about 2 months ago. Unfortunately I was misinformed with these changes. So I made these changes only last week at the expense of being called and scolded by my superiors. Take note, superiorS not superior. I know that what I did was a mistake. but that mistake was i know not my doing (notice that I havent been mentioning the actual occurence hehehe). What I was doing for the past few months was correct and some of my officemates can even attest to that. What sucks is, knowing u didnt do anything wrong and yet you cannot do anything but make it seem that it was ur mistake as you are being scolded. Whats worse is people around me who contributed to that mistake were saying : "hindi mo ba alam yun". For me gusto kong sumigaw ng BULLSHIT ka! Gago pla to eh kasalanan mo to!! syempre you cannot do that coz senior sila sayo.. oh well..
basta that was the story.. and then kanina, I finished editing my output for the day... so I walked the halls and went up the stairs when I saw one of my superiors. I smiled and all i got was a half-smile and an eyebrow raised! FUCK DB! I knew that it was about the 'mistake' i did.. whcih FYI she was part of... so i left smiling.. then turning around and quietly cursing her! Well cheap noh? pero un lang tlga magagwa ko... :(
lumang post na to from na inuulit ko! I got this from a collection of Pinoy essays, short stories etc. Nkakaaliw siya pero if you read between the lines it means something deep.. So go ahead! interpret it! :)
Kailangang bumangon. Kailangang labanan ang pagod ng katawan at ilayop ang sarili sa higaan. Kailangang kaladkarin ang paa sa malamig na sahig. Kailangang uminom ng tubig. Kailangang pumunta sa banyo at umihi. Tumae. Kailangang maligo. Kailangang buhusan ng tubig ang antok, sama ng loob at gutom. Kailangang kuskusin ang sarili ng labakara at sabon. Kailangang punasan ang katawan. Kailangang gamitin ang tuwalyang ilang lingo nang hindi nalalabhan. Kailangang magbihis upang magarang tignan. Kailangang magbihis ng magara upang tignan. Kailangang magsuklay, magpabango. Kailangang kumain. Kailangang kumain upang hindi manghina habang naghahanap ng pambili ng makakain. Kailangang uminom ulit. Kailangang kumain at uminom para bukas ay may maitae at may maiihing muli. Kailangang isipin kung anong kakainin bukas. Kailangang tanungin ang sarili kung nakabayad na sa koryente o nakaipon na ng pangmatrikula ng anak. Kailangang bilisan. Kailangang bilisan ang pag-iisip at pagkain ng ulam na matabang. Kailangan, kailangan, kailangan. Sa paghiga ng araw, kailangan naming matulog. Matulog dahil meron pang bukas, kung kalian kailangan na naming bumangon. O kaya matulo na lang nang mahimbinh na mahimbing, habang nakalibing
"Its the same shit, every day"
Ever felt like your life is becoming a routine? That nothing exciting ever happens to you? You wake up, take a bath, eat your breakfast, go to work or school, have lunch then work/study again then go home and have dinner and sleep.
Every single day, I deal with the same shit. I face people/ celebrities that Ihave to preview and do my work as a promo specialist. Its only been five months and yet I am kinda sick of it.
You deal with what you have to deal with over and over and over again until it wanna make you vomit and shout... " WALA NA BANG IBA?!" Although there is the occassional new plugs I have to produce but still it cannot overpower the things that I must regularly do. So right now I have to face the fact that my life has become a trash can of monotony.
Good thing I have friends who keep me sane when they text me: TOWN TAU! or Wanna go out tonight? Or hey im in glorietta, wanna meet up? These are the things that I am thankful for: Friendships that keep me in balance, family who could listen to my professional grievances and my ever-so-tatag self!
For the longest time I have been wanting to escape this life of mine. I thought of resigning, studying again etc. But I came to thinking that no matter where or what I do, this monotonous life can never be escaped. So I thought: Yes life can be such a pain in th ass, Yes life can be boring but somewhere in this journey there are peopl and things that balances life out and because of that I am contented :)
Wow! Its been such a long time since I last wrote here. I dont really know where my mind has flown the past few months. Maybe Im just not in the mood to write anymore or maybe Im just making up excuses to not write what I feel...
The past few months has been a rollercoaster ride for me. The Ups were great: Graduating, going to Bora with friends, having tons of drinking sessions with troops and loving somebody... But then again the Downs were...emotionally inexplainable: looking for a job, losing a friend, breaking up and being torn, working like crazy.
There has been a lot of things going on in my life that I tend to neglect the beautiful things around me. All I seem to be doing with my life right now is worry. I have been calculating every step Im doing in life. I have been weighing chances of having a better life until one day I decided to just chill.
I was at Glorietta a few days ago. I was with my neice. She wanted to play so I brought her to the playground. We were there for two hours, and while my neice was playing to her hearts content I suddenly was taken aback with the thoughts that came rushing in my head: Wouldnt it be nice to be young again?
I see all of these kids, running around, talking each other (they dont necessarily know each other), sweating without caring. They were plainly having fun and without a care in the world they feel that this is the best thing they could possibly do with their life.
I thought of a few years back when I was the type who would not care about how i looked, if i was sweaty already or not, the type who wouldnt care about what other people might say. I miss those days of not worrying about how much I am going to earn this payday, If what i earn compensates my lifestyle, If i can attend this gimmick...etc.
Wouldnt it be nice to a child again. the type who wouldnt care about politics and governance. The type who would cry at a simple pain and after a few minutes, would laugh when given a lollipop. A childs simple life makes everything simple. Their innocence gives them that happiness and that what i dream about: to not forget to be childlike; to have that innocence that would make me happy and contented with my life... but with all the troubles in this ever-so-cruel world being a child seems like a fairy tale
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